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06:06 pm
[Link] | Bought a kickass camera today, and a memory card.
It's so close. I'm scared!
Current Mood:  excited
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01:18 pm
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Calm before the storm
Today is the first day that it started to dawn on me that I'm going to Ireland in less than two weeks. It's been surreal so far and I've been distracted by saying goodbye to dear friends and family... but reading my FUTURE ROOMMATE'S (yeah Carrie!!) travel blog from Australia has reminded me of all the crazy shit that happens when you're abroad, and I'm getting super excited. The first two weeks with my sister will especially kick ass. My only concern is that I hope I can refrain from comparing the people I will meet with the people in New Zealand, because those are some big shoes to fill.
On a completely dorky note, I have become literally obsessed with Lord of the Rings lately, I'm not sure why, possibly because I associate that story and the scenery and everything with travelling and goodbyes and green places... it makes me incredibly sad even just thinking about it and still I subject myself to it. There is a scene in the Return of the King between Faramir and Eowyn and it's the most cinematically pleasing thing I've ever seen... the lighting and lenses and music and editing all work so perfectly, it makes me feel like I'm in a dream. I seriously rewound it over and over the first time I saw it. After searching on the internet for a half hour (I LOVE GOOGLE) I was able to locate the song, which happens to be sung by Liv Tyler (!!!) and is so fucking beautiful I can't stand to listen to it. I recommend you download it: "Arwen's Song", it's only about a minute and a half but it could change your life.
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Steward of Gondor
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01:41 pm
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This is it Arizona
Today is the day I say goodbye to my three. I seriously feel like I should have "the Grey Havens" theme playing behind me as I say "the Shire has been saved... but not for me."
Time to go.
Current Mood:  sad
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01:09 pm
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I'm not dead
Ohhhhh buddy. It's been a long time since I've written on here... the summer is passing by in a haze of herb and excessive drinking to the point of absolute blackouts. I honestly don't know how I'm still alive. I've been having fun in the Boy House in spite of the army of roaches and the distraction of beautiful shirtless roommate Nate mowing the lawn. That's all I really feel like saying at this point... I plan on morphing this bitch of a journal into a travel blog in about three weeks. I'm starting to get really excited/scared for Ireland; I'm terrified of the final goodbye to Arizona and Club, but the celtic allure is beginning to manifest itself.
Current Mood: hot
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05:35 pm
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Believe...?
It is SO ANNOYING when you can't find a song on the internet. I thought I had a line of lyrics but after an hour and a half of searching and searching I think they might be wrong. At least I FINALLY got "Babe" by Styx. Yes I'm pretty gay. Oh, oh wait, no I'm not because I'll be in VEGAS in 15 hours!!
WOOOOO!!!!!!
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: STYX BITCH
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10:43 am
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"...we have one of his songs on our computer"
"Koi? That's not a desert fish!"
"There ARE no desert fish."
This was from a conversation with my sister last night. I laughed for ten minutes.
I am having the best summer ever. I go to the beach like every day, I'm spending a bunch of time with my family and Kiki, my biggest issue right now is shin splints (which actually hurt quite a lot). I have about 12 days left in California (boo/yay) and half of that is going to be taken up with trips. That's right, VEGAS BABY, we bought plane tickets yesterday, it's going to be me Kiki and Cory and it's going to be AWESOME. We return to Torrance at 7am and I will change and get in the car for two nights of fancypants wine tasting with my mom and sister. STOKED!
I love everything and everybody.
Current Mood:  bouncy
Current Music: Astelin theme song!
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10:53 am
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DON'T FLATTER YOURSELF
Ahh, "while it lasts"? Well it lasted til about 7pm yesterday. The AJ thing is over. I was pretty upset at the time, but I wasn't sad. I was angry that he managed to still get the upper hand even though this whole thing was kind of a joke to me. Well, not really a joke but definitely not serious. I mean I'm crazy about some other guy, how serious could I be? Yet I still end up looking like the Sad Girl. Silly Kasey. I should have learned my lesson the first three times.
I felt shitty all night; I kept waking up and thinking about it. I refuse to give any details because it's all much too humiliating... but when a door closes: I just went onto facebook and the lovely Jon Lolley had written a message - "hurry up already!". I couldn't believe it, I haven't even talked to him since we last worked together. It made me feel way better about the situation... I don't know why but I get along with Arizona boys 10,000x better than stupid conceited arrogant Californian boys.
Anyway, who cares? Let's go tanning!
Current Mood:  WHATEVER
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03:42 pm
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FOLLOW YOUR BLISS
Why have I been freaking out? Things are good with both AJ and Brent... I'm an idiot for stressing about this. I should just enjoy the attention while it lasts.
Since my rant about the herb I have been much better. I have slipped a few times but I've been running on the strand like every day and I have a pretty good tan going... or at least a base for the rest of the time I'm here. Tanning is kind of addicting. This weekend has kicked ass so far, we went to dinner and saw XMen last night, tonight is the big soccer game in which we will watch David's nephew be a professional (literally), tomorrow I see my Ma's side for dinner and Monday my Dad's side for a BBQ. My biggest problem right now is the three loads of laundry I still have to do.
I love summer.
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: That Orthodox Jewish reggae rap dude
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11:45 am
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So stay with me and I'll have it made
The doob is killing me. I came home intending to whip myself into a hot little piece of ass to subsequently charm the pants off Brent (literally) when I got back to AZ... instead I sat and watched three movies in a row yesterday. While eating. Nonstop. GROSS!! I can't believe I did that... especially when I have invested so much in this "plan" already ($225 dollars for 20 sessions at an upscale tanning salon... California does something weird to me).
Speaking of, I have had strange nightmare/dreams about Brent and other girls from our class the last two nights. I hadn't realized that I was so paranoid.
I am also sabotaging whatever it is that I have with AJ. I screened his calls all weekend, including a little song he "wrote for me" entitled "kasey b, a la mode" and left on my voicemail. I adore him! So why am I doing this?? I called him back last night and things were awkward, to say the least. I need to make a decision on this, not necessarily about what I want but how I am going to approach it.
I'm bored and don't feel like doing laundry... somebody else update!
Current Mood:  awake
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11:27 am
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I am SO SICK of streaky self tanner
Had a nice evening with Kik yesterday, except for running into all the girls we never wanted to see again. All of them. Sat in the booth next to us. We literally ran away.
Later Eddie and AJ and David met up with us... I don't even know. It's like AJ and I repeat the same cycle every couple of years. I feel almost taken advantage of because my feelings for him have never really gone away, even since high school. I think he knows this and since everyone else has girlfriends and he's feeling lonely I am a good quick fix. Yet I will still make out with him in his truck outside my house while Led Zeppelin is on the radio. Seriously, am I 16?? The one difference this time around is that he wants to "hang out this weekend"... maybe things will be different ...for a month...?
And the other thing is that if I knew that Brent was doing this while I was gone I would be pretty upset... we're not together or even dating but it still seems like an unspoken rule that we might when I get back... how do I justify this to myself?
Current Mood:  confused
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11:51 am
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Hey are you hot in Arizona?? Because it's 75 degrees here HAHAHA
As much as I hated on Cholla, I was a little nostalgic as I was leaving. My room was pretty sweet. Especially because I got fucked up in it on a daily basis. Suckers.
Moving sucked ASS. I waited til the very VERY last minute and had to get up at 5am to finish... still, the afternoon spent with TA Brent was worth it. My whole drive home consisted of getting high and basking in the afterglow of the fact that he kissed me goodbye.
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SO GLAD TO BE HOME!! This summer is going to kick ass.
Current Mood: elated
Current Music: JCS Soundtrack -- Hosanna
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11:31 am
[Link] | PS I refuse to answer my room phone unless I am specifically on checkout duty. So stop trying.
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11:16 am
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It wasn't even that funny but I died laughing
Had a really strange night at work... started out good, got really bad, then good again... but I think my favorite part of the whole night was noticing what someone wrote on the spill log by the bar. You know, the clipboard where people write down if they waste a drink somehow: "5/7...1 stein Canadian Molson...customer didn't like," etc. I saw at the bottom someone had anonymously written "5/9...80 glasses beer...drank them". I laughed and laughed and laughed. I think the best part is that they just walked away and waited for someone to notice.
Current Mood: content
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11:36 pm
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Still pretty effing happy, in spite of it all
Five Things I Really Like:
1. The Sonic commercial featuring the bacon and egg burrito ("Dude Bacon sounds awesome! I want to hang with Bacon!!")
2. When Jon Lolley (work) recognizes a song I'm humming from the Rent soundtrack
3. The theme in Lord of the Rings that plays every time they show Eowyn or Rohan
4. Clean sheets
5. The way that Brent (TA) will call me out on my stupid girl shit and then in the next breath accomodate my insecurities
Five Things I Really Don't Like:
1. How my feather duster just pushes dust around
2. Melty resin... so gross
3. Calling it "duty" when it really means all night checkouts
4. Moving
5. How for some reason I simply cannot download a legit version of "Babe" by Styx
Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: American Beauty, Beautiful Mind, LOTR soundtracks
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12:24 am
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JOY!!
My heart feels like it's about to burst
Current Mood: on another plane
Current Music: Rent -- Seasons of Love
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12:06 am
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Heart vs. Brain...
That's it; I'm officially in love with my TA, and there's nothing I can do about it.
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: The Beatles -- I've Just Seen a Face
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11:27 am
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And the plot thickens
I gave up on my TA some weeks ago, it just wasn't going to happen... until I received an email from him this morning. After class yesterday he had said something about drinking and I had responded "yes! let's go get wasted" and while I meant it I assumed he was just making fun of my alcoholic tendencies, so I left. I got the email from him this morning asking why I didn't want to drink yesterday... ACK!! So I invited him out tomorrow or the weekend, oh GOD I hope he comes because there's still something about him that makes me a little crazy. This could get messy considering Greg's friends think I'm like his girlfriend or something but come on, I'm leaving this whole mess in a week and a half anyway.
Current Mood: giggly
Current Music: Stevie Wonder -- Sir Duke
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04:05 pm
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ARS498, you are killing me
Dude... get me out of this stupid classroom, our papers were turned in last week, I want to go home! This is what comes of being in a class with grad students who have no lives. I'm effing starving.
I haven't slept in my own bed since Saturday... which sounds really bad but it so isn't. Aside from the gigantic welt on my neck that takes three inches of makeup to cover, it's been pretty PG13. I don't know where it's going and I'm content not to... I am having a good time though. Plus his friends are seriously the funniest people EVER... had an interesting conversation over a few bowls and a couple of beers that ended in the agreement that a spork would only be a good weapon in prison if you put AIDS on the end of it.
And yes, what I said previously about my Boy Hiatus is obviously invalid, I realize this... but isn't that the way the universe works? As soon as I really meant it, I mean like the NEXT DAY I get tossed a pretentious, incredibly smart east coast hippie character who hates washing shot glasses and is so not my type... but it's too hilarious to stop.
Current Mood: infatuated
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02:57 pm
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Best $6.48 you can spend
So I kicked the Geese Book's ass. I did 90% of my paper/presentation (which was supposed to be a semester's worth of work) the morning that it was due... yet people seemed okay with it. My teacher told me it was good (!), the other undergrad in the class was very supportive, and one of the grad students told me she was impressed and that it was interesting. That may have been the greatest compliment, only because art history definitely has the ability to be super boring. Sooo huge weight lifted, that was the one class I was crazyworried about.
ONE WEEK LEFT... I have an insane amount of drawing work to do, but I know I can do it. And when Tuesday is over, I'm taking a bath in Miller Lite.
I got my loan, I'm officially accepted, Ireland is happening. I can't believe it.
Kiki moved her wedding up to July! THIS YEAR!! OMG I'm freaking out... but it's going to be awesome. I can't wait to go home and start really planning.
I am SO EXCITED to be out of effing Cholla in like two weeks... if everything works out with Chris and Taka and the house this may be the greatest summer ever.
PS Huzzah Erin, I'm glad you're not dead. Oh and she's marrying David Bornstein, isn't that adorable?!
Current Mood: full
Current Music: Tenacious D -- Kyle Took a Bullet for Me
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04:06 pm
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Vine for life
My crazy boss who has a reputation for being a bitch (and by whom I'm totally intimidated) told me today: "You know, you're doing a really good job. You're fitting in with the staff, you're good with the customers, no problems..."
Me: "Well I just really, really love this job. More than anywhere else I've worked. And everyone is SO FUNNY!!"
Laura: "Yes well it usually goes like that. If you fit in you love it; if not, you hate it."
I almost passed out. What a nice thing to say. Hopefully this will all help towards me being able to take a month off in summer.
In a week and a half, I am free from school. One week from Tuesday. I can't imagine what it will be like; except me and Lauren getting wasted everyday and laughing at people with finals.
Erin, update your journal. I'm having withdrawals.
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Peter Frampton -- Show Me the Way
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